Dear Diary....

Since taking the comments off I feel like I'm writing a diary rather than a public blog.
I feel safer to say what I want to say in many ways.

Yesterday felt a lot like Christmas used to feel like when I was a kid. I'd anticipated and dreamed of the day so often. Thank you to everyone who sent me emails congratulating me. I could not of made such huge changes to my life without the love and support of family and friends. I do still want to stay in contact with all of you and love getting emails. Emails are so much more private and personal than comments left on the blog. I'll add my email to the side bar later for those who don't have it.

I'm doing really well at avoiding the forums. I was finding I was whining too often and being too negative. Once I wrote down my grumbles, I gave them too much power. I'm working really hard on being more positive and focusing on the fabulous in my life. I've also been really good at not spending hours on the net. I spend around 30 mins a day now. Mostly checking on Ravelry and Weight Watchers and the occasional blog post here. The kids have noticed the difference. I've been a lot more present with them.

Reaching Goal weight isn't the end just the beginning of a healthy, happy life. I'll still be at the gym most nights, because I like it! I'll still be making healthy food choices because I want to stay healthy.
Last night I ran 60 minutes on the treadmill! This morning my bum is sore and I like feeling sore, because it reminds me how hard I worked.

Yesterday I bought another new dress, got a hair cut and waxing, dyed my hair and splurged on some Mineral makeup. The biggest reward was seeing my huge smile in the mirror and knowing how far I have come and being so proud of myself for doing it.

Pete is rewarding me with a generous amount of money to go shopping with in Adelaide. I need to plan a wardrobe! I don't have many clothes left that fit. My Gym buddy dropped me around a pile of size 10 jeans as the 12's I'd bought were very baggy. I've bought a couple of nice dresses. I need new underwear desperately, my knickers keep falling down and my bras are too big to give much support. I've taken to wearing a crop over my bras to keep everything in place when I run and jump. I need to take my wedding and engagement rings to the jeweler to have them resized. My feet have also shrunk, I need smaller shoes too.

So what am I going to buy?
What is my 'style'?
Decisions, decisions....
What do I want my outwards appearance to say about me?
I want it to show a happy, confident, fit, creative, loving mum.

When I was obese I wanted to hide under polar fleece, not that it ever made me invisible. It just said I don't love me enough to make the effort to show the world who I am.

I'm scared and excited all at the same time. It's been so long since I could walk into any of those trendy clothes shops and know something would fit me. What colours do I like? What suits me?

Thanks for listening, I hope your day is filled with happiness.