No idea!

Self revelations come on my runs.

Today's was a relatively short run for me at 4kms. I'm not a fast runner, yet. I'm getting there with the distances. I enjoy my runs so much that I get out of bed at 6am to do them! Today's run was great, I did some good times in a couple of my 1/2km splits.

12 months ago I would of laughed at anyone who told me I'd be happy to get up at 6am to go run. Some days I squeeze in a second run after dinner.

Today's run revelation was that I have no idea, no idea of what I am capable of! Twelve months ago I would of told you I couldn't run for 1 min, let alone an hour. Now I run almost 2 hours!

I've come to see that my only limitations are the ones I set for myself. That by thinking "I can't" I'd fulfilled those limitations.

I'm happy to say I have no idea of what I am capable of. I'm so looking forward to finding out what I can do, no longer hampered by the self doubt and negative self talk.

I've gone and done it...

I've signed up and paid for my first 1/2 marathon!

I'm going to do the Clare Half Marathon on April the 1st!

Now I'm dragging myself out of bed at 6 am to get my runs in.

My aim is to finish, I'm not concerned about my time.

My longest run so far was 15kms about 6 weeks ago and I still had some get up and go at the end 

so I'm certain I can do a half, which is just over 21kms.

If you're in Clare on the 1st of April, 

make sure you throw some water on me and say hello!

Fake it 'til you make it!

Today is my year anniversary at Weight Watchers. A year ago today I joined. A year ago today I made the decision that this was the last time I'd ever weight 89.9kgs (or more) I took the last photo of me ever at that weight.

A year on and I've achieved my goals. 

At times it's been an easy ride at others the hardest journey I've ever taken. I've learned so much and grown so much. I've become mentally and physically healthy.

There were days I just had to fake being the healthy, fit woman I dreamed of being. Times I had to ask myself, "What would a fit, healthy woman do?" Would she go the gym or sit on the couch eating the salt and vinegar chips?

Days I had to ask myself, "Who do you want to be?" The depressed, overweight mother or the fit, energetic, happy mother. Days I just had to fake being that fit, happy, energetic woman.

Ever day I faked it was one day closer to making it. By acting like a fit, healthy energetic woman I have become that fit, healthy, energetic woman. Today I don't have to fake it anymore. 

My blog has been poorly neglected of late. I've lost my blog mojo, not a bad thing really. I did weaken and rejoined facebook for a few weeks there but once again 'social networking' started to take over my life. Would a fit, energetic, woman sit on facebook? Or would she be out playing with her kids? I decided to deactivate my facebook account again, I'm not the sort of person who can use it in a balanced and moderated way.